Archive for December, 2014

sad-girl

Decision to speak truth is always the best decision

sad-girlWorking as a freelance web developer alone with no one to help, it was okay till now but since few months I was checking on my daily schedule that I had almost no time left for myself. Earlier I used to take out time for my hobby, some exercise, little things that kept me social like visiting friends place at various occasions or just hanging out and having a good time etc. but now all I was doing was eating, sleeping and working. Due to this change in life style I noticed rapid increase in body weight as well, which is not a good sign at all.

I thought of hiring someone to work for me but again this freelance work was so typical that I could not find anyone around me worth hiring. I talked about this issue with my friends and one of them who was also from computer background suggested that I can give her some work to do and she will do it for free just for learning and work experience. I agreed and also committed that if her work was good, I would pay for the work, but she insisted that she does not need money.

It began with little easy and small task which I gave her to check her ability and she did a kind of “just okay” job and I knew I was not going to get any worthwhile help from her in my freelance work. I lied and said that her work was good although I was not satisfied. Later on I gave her some designing work to check her taste of colours and how well she understands the current design trends and she failed badly in it. Her design work was pathetic but again to make her not feel bad I said it was good. Although I said it was good since I didn’t use her design in final project and obviously it got rejected by the client as well, she understood now that she needs some training and I agreed to give her that, but I was still quite hopeless. Just like I thought, even after several months of training, I was not seeing any progress and during these time, just that she doesn’t feel bad I used to say that you are working well and you are learning fast and so on.

Now during festive season I usually have truckloads of work with myself as I also take some print design jobs from my local clients and I was not having a minute of free time. However I continued with the training and all this time I was lying that yes I got time but in reality I had no time at all. At last I have to give up when I learnt that she is still stuck from where we started and there was no development at all. I had to speak the truth one by one, starting that I simply have no more time for training now. Wish I had said this much before and saved so much time and embarrassment.

When we manipulate someone, although it seems to work for the moment but then deep inside us we know that we are not doing good and that makes us feel uncomfortable after sometime. Here is a nice TVC by Kinley which shows exactly the same feeling of regret and how one can fix it by just speaking the truth.

Chilly morning and a beautiful girl in my dream

Its those days of winter which are super dense foggy in the morning and therefore I always work late night and wake up very late. I do this on purpose because I know that it would be pain to wake up early morning during these cold winter days so why not work late night and then wake up naturally after a good 8 hours of sleep. So usually I got to sleep at 3 AM and wake up around 11 AM in the morning. Perks of being a full time freelance web developer!

So as usual I worked late night yesterday and today morning I was not in any case going to wake up at 9 but then I saw a dream and a seriously “my kind of” beautiful girl took my sleep away and could not sleep any more. First scene in the dream was about apocalypse (no I didn’t see any movie at night) and I was in middle of the road with horror of zombie coming from any side and killing me. I walked around and found an unlocked car and I immediately sneaked inside it to hide. Then there was this huge bus parked at side of the road and a girl was crawling out of the window of the bus. At first I thought she was a zombie so I immediately rolled up all the windows and locked the car from inside.

Next scene of the dream is somehow I am now out of that car in which I was hiding and that girl is also looking around that car for something and it looks like she is normal and not a zombie. She looks pretty as well. Now I decide to leave this place as I manage to start that car and after moving some distance I thought why not ask that girl too. I stopped and turned around to see that gorgeous girl and really she was looking just stunning! I mean really a kind of girl for which you will go to ANY extent and she had a smile on her face. I immediately parked my car on the side so and she popped in.. Right when she comes inside, I dream time stops and I wake up. Now I can’t sleep and after struggling for sometime to fall asleep again, I get up.