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Decision to speak truth is always the best decision

sad-girlWorking as a freelance web developer alone with no one to help, it was okay till now but since few months I was checking on my daily schedule that I had almost no time left for myself. Earlier I used to take out time for my hobby, some exercise, little things that kept me social like visiting friends place at various occasions or just hanging out and having a good time etc. but now all I was doing was eating, sleeping and working. Due to this change in life style I noticed rapid increase in body weight as well, which is not a good sign at all.

I thought of hiring someone to work for me but again this freelance work was so typical that I could not find anyone around me worth hiring. I talked about this issue with my friends and one of them who was also from computer background suggested that I can give her some work to do and she will do it for free just for learning and work experience. I agreed and also committed that if her work was good, I would pay for the work, but she insisted that she does not need money.

It began with little easy and small task which I gave her to check her ability and she did a kind of “just okay” job and I knew I was not going to get any worthwhile help from her in my freelance work. I lied and said that her work was good although I was not satisfied. Later on I gave her some designing work to check her taste of colours and how well she understands the current design trends and she failed badly in it. Her design work was pathetic but again to make her not feel bad I said it was good. Although I said it was good since I didn’t use her design in final project and obviously it got rejected by the client as well, she understood now that she needs some training and I agreed to give her that, but I was still quite hopeless. Just like I thought, even after several months of training, I was not seeing any progress and during these time, just that she doesn’t feel bad I used to say that you are working well and you are learning fast and so on.

Now during festive season I usually have truckloads of work with myself as I also take some print design jobs from my local clients and I was not having a minute of free time. However I continued with the training and all this time I was lying that yes I got time but in reality I had no time at all. At last I have to give up when I learnt that she is still stuck from where we started and there was no development at all. I had to speak the truth one by one, starting that I simply have no more time for training now. Wish I had said this much before and saved so much time and embarrassment.

When we manipulate someone, although it seems to work for the moment but then deep inside us we know that we are not doing good and that makes us feel uncomfortable after sometime. Here is a nice TVC by Kinley which shows exactly the same feeling of regret and how one can fix it by just speaking the truth.

Getting fat day by day

When my friends come to my place these days, they always point out that I have gained a lot of weight. Weight machine at my home also tell those extra kilos added. I was a very skinny person but then after my education I could not get any job and so kept working as a freelacer. Now working as a freelance web developer from home means I am confined to my home and I don’t even get time to write a blog post or get my car serviced! Weeks pass and then I realize that I have not stepped out of my home and then I plan a trip to nearby market to buy some groceries and stuff. I am not complaining, I am enjoying my life as I work with my convenience but this convenience is now showing its ill effect. Because of almost no physical work, I am gaining unnecessary weight. People who go to work atleast they have to climb a few stairs, walk around in the office and travel from one place to another which keeps their body in working order. Here a freelancer like me is struck between his computer and the amazing world of internet which keeps him glued. All the work is on computer and all the entertainment is too on computer.

I have also become lazy, and enthusiasm to do something fun is loosing. I was an electronics hobbyist who would not think twice to go out and hunt for a component in market. Today even if I have it in front of me, I will prefer to browse 9gag instead of tinkering with circuits.

Everyday I think of starting to exercise a bit but can’t do it. With this blog post I hope I gavw myself some kick to get started with little workout every morning.